I have been on an extended leave of absence from this site and any other site due to loss. The death of 2 people that I loved dearly within 2 weeks of each other. Death can paralyze you because I am temporarily paralyzed. I am coming out of shock and proceeding through the grief process. Life will never be the same. These last 2 years have been the most death that I have had, so that is a blessing in itself I know, but it hurts. I know people who have the curse of losing all the men in their life before the age of 25, so I am truly blessed. I am back trying to continue this life with these voids.